hawa ali drammeh | 8.10.2024, 1:34 am
i finally realized this.
as i was writing being real w myself and thinking a lot about the state of my current life, some of my recent performance / experiences & my lack of motivation, drive, and excellence within my own projects, i had an awakening.
im so glad i’ve taken a step back from everything these past 4 weeks to take care of my health, myself, realign, calm my brain, and do deep introspection on what is going on with me. it all makes sense now. here is one key realization i came to that is going to change the way i approach my life, my work, my learning, and my choices for the rest of my life: backup plans and plan b’s kill your chance at being brilliant and exceptional.
i don’t understand why as a society, we’ve normalized having back up plans. why haven’t we— why haven’t i questioned this practice until now. at my big age of 22. why why why? it’s okay, better late than never. the realization was meant to happen now and that’s why it’s happening now.
my 8/5/2024 entry of being real w myself describes this a bit more:
8/5/2024: having a plan B is the reason i’ve done so bad in so many things lately and have had such low energy and motivation. having a plan B is the biggest killer of all plan A’s. i should simply only have a plan A, no backups, no hedging bets, no trying to move a bunch of options and safety nets forward. making the big decision to pick 1 thing and let that one thing consume me. the cause for my lack of care these past few years is literally:
- hedging bets
- having too many options
- getting way too comfortable
- lack of discipline
- not knowing how to actually learn.
- doing things that don’t energize me
- not taking the big risks and forcing myself to make the big decisions.
- relying too much on backup plans and plan Bs.
what is a backup plan? google:
can you imagine that we as a society have normalized believing that we indeed have such a high possibility of failing with our initial plan A that we have exerted a ton of energy (that we instead should have been spending on the plan A) to devise a plan b and plant the plan b in our subconscious.